Senin, 30 Desember 2024

My honey, thank you

A poetry by Kiki

My honey, thank you

Allah created me in the best form

Allah also gave me a soft feeling

Allah also presented me with a sweet man who is like honey

The typical skin of Middle Eastern people like honey makes me amazed

His height is beautiful to look at and I am amazed to see him for the first time

His eyes and nose make me fascinated because there is a difference with me

His cold and smooth hands when I hold him tightly

He has illness and I have health but I accept him because of sincerity

That's all good for me and I miss him.

 

I call him a handsome man with a sweet middle eastern character like honey

I love him when he is far from me

I miss his addictive accent

I accept everything about him, for me he is perfect to complete me

I will keep everything about him I am serious about him

But….

I was made to shatter into pieces like broken glass

I was made to cry for King Fahad's Fountain in his city

I was forced to suddenly forget and stay away from him because of another woman

I am willing to forgive and dare to take action to leave.

 

The man I call sweet honey is beautiful to look at

A man who is romantic for other women but for me his attitude is pathetic

A man who is sweet like honey will start his new life

Without me

I will always remember that I am a play doll

I will always be the hurt character in his new relationship

I love that sweet man like honey unconditionally

I love him for a year at that time a year my prayers flowed to him in 5 times.

 

A sweet man like honey whose parents expect him to have a pious nature

A man I flattered accepted me because the creator is almighty is now a memory

A sweet man like honey who I used to love is now moving away by himself

I just call him sweet honey who used to be the sweetener of my life

Promising me a world that will be filled with love because of Allah has now turned into a lost promise

The difference in region makes me distant from him but my prayers cover him

A sweet man like honey will never understand my feelings how wide my heart is

Will I draw it.

 

All pages and chapters have been written in detail

All the sweet and bitter moments have ended

All my feelings for that sweet man ended in compulsion

All my prayers suddenly stopped because of the unfinished heartache

I will remember everything because this is the first in my life

I will always remember everything that I was once made very down by a man

Everything is lost and forced to stay away because there is a woman whose heart must be guarded

For my dear honey who was once a part of my messy life in the past

Once present in the life of a girl full of trauma

Always remember Allah then Allah will remember you too

Remember me like you keep many important documents

Learn our story and so do I

Lastly, live your life as usual

I have a lot of social media, please contact me like you contact a doctor when you need it.

 

 

 

Me and you my sweet honey beautiful to look at I want to hug

The distinctive scent of your expensive perfume will always stick to my body when I hug you in the basement

I will continue to learn about our story all without spaces

I was once a part of your life without just a moment

Let God act next for us in the future

I will always remember you you were also very good to me

My mother knows you but your mother doesn't know me

I love you but you don't feel it

Our memories will be witnesses that I was there for you

God who created us will be witnesses that we were together.

 

This poem from the author for a sweet man like honey will be a sweet work

This poem indicates that I and the sweet man like honey were once together

Making love together but in reality there are two women who love and I give in

The author advises to be a good servant of Allah

My dear honey, may Allah bring us together another time

Maintaining friendship so that we live long.

 

Thank you for being the first man to send me a lot of money

Thank you for giving me expensive food

Thank you for letting me get into your car with the roof open for the first time in my life

Thank you for being my first boyfriend for three years I was single from the trauma of being secretly left by my ex and you gave me another new wound

Thank you for letting me kiss your cheeks and touch your sharp nose

Honey, thank you for everything.

 

  

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                               


Sabtu, 28 Desember 2024

Halaman Terakhir

 Halaman Terakhir 

Semakin lama semakin terasa bahwa usiaku semakin berkurang 

Semakin lama hidup di dunia juga semakin banyak pembelajaran yang harus ku saring 

Harus mengerti banyak hal baik yang harus ku pahami lalu ke praktikkan 

Banyaknya tantangan yang harus membuatku menjadi jauh lebih kuat 

Memahami banyaknya karakter manusia

Memahami diriku sendiri agar aku bisa mengubah dari yang buruk menjadi baik


Menerima kenyataan pahit seperti Adelia makan pare harus di paksa telan

Ditahan untuk memuntahkannya 

Diharuskan kunyah hingga lembut lalu di telan

Begitu keras kehidupan anak perempuan pertama 

Di datangkan oleh Allah seorang laki-laki yang sangat tampan wajahnya dan dingin tangannya karena ada penyakitnya 

Anak perempuan pertama ini menerima dingin tangannya yang perlahan-lahan tumbuh menjadi duri

Sakit tapi tidak berdarah 

Di ujung cerita laki-laki tersebut bermain sangat cantik dibelakang layar 

Menyakiti perempuan anak pertama perempuan tersebut

Membunuh hati tulus anak pertama perempuan tersebut

Sangat kejam dengan tangan dinginnya yang lama-lama tumbuh menjadi duri 


Semakin lama semakin terasa kalau laki-laki itu tampan tapi menghanyutkan 

Diam tapi ribut di dalam hatinya 

Laki-laki itu menunjukkan sikap bunglonnya 

Sang anak perempuan itu menyatukan tangannya di sepertiga malam berbicara kepada sang pencipta 

Meminta keadilan 

Meminta kesadaran

Meminta keamanan 

Meminta segalanya untuk tenang 

Inilah halaman terakhir 

Halaman yang harus di tutup selamanya tidak ada tambahan nasihat atau masukan

Cukup dan selesai 

Tangan sang pencipta akan terus menghitung dan merancang masa depan 

Karma itu benar adanya

Tanggal dan waktu telah di tulis dengan baik dan rapi.

First Child Girl

 

First Child Girl

Life will continue and age will continue to decrease as time goes by

Day by day passed with various activities that drain energy and emotions

Living daily life without the oldest sibling who can be a listener and speaker

Given wounds, hugging wounds, healing wounds, forced to be happy, forced to always be there for her younger sibling

Required to be able to do everything

Then presented with a man

Then her heart was hurt

Abandoned for no reason

 

Rarely telling parents or siblings because they have given a strong sign

Crying in the room looking at the ceiling, taking paper then letting the pen dance

Shedding tears without being seen by many eyes but the creator witnessed

The longer it gets weaker and needs mental consultation

Some relatives can only give the word patience

 

Continuously hurt for many reasons

Mentally weak because of the man

The man forgot that he had a mother who gave birth, conceived and breastfed

Given wounds when old wounds have not healed

Previously loved, now hurt

But Allah is very gentle

 

God soften the heart of this first child to forgive and be calm

Because everything returns to the destiny that has been written

Try to be calm, peaceful and let it all happen

In the end this girl realized that good and bad will be repaid

Then this girl realized that she would not live in this world forever because the world is temporary

This first girl forgave because the world is getting older

Must remember that everything happens because of destiny and this girl's task is to pursue the future

That is to enter heaven because Allah is Almighty.



Tenanglah Kiki

  Di setiap roda kehidupan semuanya akan ku jalani di atas sepatu dan sendalku sendiri apapun ku injak pasti ku rasakan ada duri atau tidak....